DISCLAIMER: I don't own any of these characters; all rights go to those who do. I am just using them. The lyrics for this story were taken from the Mandy Moore song "Have A Little Faith in Me."
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Have a Little Faith in Me
By Dearlylovedaimee

Bianca sat on the bridge watching from a distance. Lena and Mallory exited their house and stepped into their car. She couldn't let Lena just walk out of her life without a fight. She wanted to tell her how much she loved her and how sorry she was she ever let her go.

Bianca had it all planned out in her head. She wasn't going to let Lena leave until she knew how much she loved her. She refused to let Mallory come between what they once had and could still possibly have. She had her entire speech all laid out in her head. She wasn't going to take "no" for an answer. At least that was the intended plan.

Bianca had thought by ignoring Maggie and following her heart, she was doing he right thing. She thought it would make her feel better once she rescued Lena from the horrible fate she was destined to lead with Mallory. Her reality again came crashing down on her when she saw the happy couple leaving their home together.

Hand in hand, exchanging smiles and quick kisses, they got in their car. They looked so happy together, so deeply in love. Lena looked wonderful. She had grown her hair out down to her shoulders. Black was still her signature color, but some how she made it seem as bright as the next pastel. She didn't look in pain; actually, she looked far from it. Lena was happy, because she was in love. It may have not been with her, but she was happy and that's all that mattered.

Bianca lowered her head in her hands and sobbed. Reality was often a difficult thing to digest, but sometimes being force-fed was the only way you were going to get it. She stayed there, just thinking for three hours. She had almost made a fool of herself. Worse, she had just ruined her friendship on false pretenses. She cried about everything in those three hours. She cried about her rape, she cried about loosing Lena, she cried about the way she had treated Maggie, and lastly she cried about not acting on her feelings for Maggie sooner.

Bianca knew she was in love with her. It was apparent to almost everyone in Pine Valley. Why she chose to cover it up with memories of the past was beyond her. Bianca didn't want to live a life of regret; but after the way she had treated Maggie tonight, she would be lucky if she ever spoke to her again.

Bianca walked home that night. It was against everything she had learned in self-defense classes; but she knew the way she was feeling tonight, that no mugger, rapist, or murder would dare mess with her. A gentle breeze made its way through her hair. She wrapped her arms around her body hoping to keep warm, but it did no good. Every time she would replay the night's events over and over in her head, it sent goose bumps all over her body. She closed her eyes as images of she and Maggie yelling entered her mind. The flash backs were frequent and few in between. The image of Maggie standing in their living room became as real as she was this instance.

"…Bianca she's leaving and there's nothing your going over there is going to do to change that. She's married now, to Mallory. Bianca they're happy and they're in love, you can't change that. I don't know why you try so hard to live in the past. You two tried and it didn't work out, why can't you just except that and move on?"

"Move on, you want me to move on? That's rich, especially coming from a woman who hasn't had a real date in almost two years. Now who's not facing reality Maggie?"

"That's was a low blow Bianca. You know the only reason I haven't had time for dating was because I was so busy making sure you got your life back."

"Oh, that's right, forgive me. I almost forgot you were too busy playing my savor. Maggie Stone my hero. To busy engulfing herself in other people's lives hoping, she will forget how sad and pathetic her's really is. Isn't that really the truth Maggie, huh, isn't it?"

Maggie just stared Bianca square in the eye. She hadn't heard such harsh words out of her mouth for almost two years. Bianca refused to fix her gaze any place else. She wasn't about to back down on what she said. For once in their many fights she was going to be the winner, no matter the cost.

Maggie finally gave in and looked sideways. As soon as she was able to regain the use of her legs, she walked to the in table and picked up her keys.

"You know what Bianca I guess your right; my life really is sad and pathetic. I spent two years of my life convincing myself that you would someday be mine. I guess I thought that once Lena moved on, you would too. Foolish me for ever thinking you could just admit defeat and give me a chance."

Bianca was swayed by the words her friend was confessing to her. It was no secret they both wanted each other. Maggie had sat beside her as a friend for two years of her life. As a friend, she sat back and watched Bianca pursue Lena like a fox. She sat back and kept her mouth shut and her feelings locked away. Maggie truly was the best friend Bianca could ever have. If it meant sacrificing her own love, then she would gladly do it, just to make sure Bianca got the love and affection she deserved even if it wasn't coming from her. Maggie held in frustration and longing, until she couldn't find a place to shove it away any more.

Bianca and Maggie were in love with each other, but Bianca was scared. She used all of the past, unsettled feelings she still harbored for Lena as leverage to prevent her from ever opening her heart to that kind of pain again. Bianca knew she wanted Maggie just like she wanted her and she would always want her. Lena had moved on and the cold reality was so hard on Bianca. She wanted to hate Mallory and even Lena, but she couldn't. They had been honest with one another and now it was Bianca's and Maggie's turn. Bianca couldn't keep hiding behind Lena forever. Eventually, she would have to face her heart.

As Bianca approached her front door, she panicked. No amount of words was going to ease the stress she was going through at the moment. She only hoped Maggie hadn't left in anger.

As she slowly unlocked the door, she grew even more nervous by the minute. When she stepped over the threshold, a frantic Maggie immediately greeted her. She scooped Bianca up in her arms and hugged her fiercely.

"Bianca, where the hell were you, it's nearly two o'clock in the morning? I was worried sick. David, your mother, and your Uncle Jack have the entire police department searching for you. Don't ever do that again, you hear me never?!"

Maggie softly placed a short kisses on the side of Bianca's head. She had never been so upset in her entire life. Fight or no fight, Bianca knew better.

Bianca could do nothing but hug Maggie back. She just wanted to stay in her arms forever. She wanted her to hold her all night and never let go.

Maggie broke her tight hold, when she felt something wet falling on her neck. When she pulled back she saw the tears free flowing from Bianca's eyes. She kissed her forehead and wiped the tears away with her thumb.

"Bianca, I'm sorry I ever yelled at you. Can you ever forgive me?"

"Maggie, me forgive you? I acted terrible. You know I didn't mean those things I said, don't you? You really are my hero. If it weren't for you, I may not be here. Please don't ever forget that."

Maggie pulled Bianca back into another hug. Some how they managed to work their way to the couch. They stayed there all night, each falling asleep with their heads on one another's shoulders.

Nearly two month had passed since their little incident. Slowly they managed to work their way back to a close-knit friendship. Lena and Mallory were gone and Bianca was finally able to fully move on. She wished the couple well as they headed to Chicago to be with Lena's mother.

Maggie threw herself into her studies, purposely trying to avoid any discussion of what she said to Bianca that night. She had openly confessed her long hidden love for her best friend. She hadn't meant to, but she did; and now she was paying the price. Every opportunity she had, Maggie avoided intimacy with Bianca. She was hoping that school would provide just the distraction she needed to get her through.

Unbeknownst to Maggie, was Bianca. She would often sit in the hallway to Maggie's bedroom and watch her. She found herself contemplating on whether to act or just pretend it didn't happen. Denial had gotten her now where in the past and she just could bare to take that chance with Maggie. She was the one thing in her life that she hadn't managed to screw up in her 22 years of existence, and she wasn't going to start now.

Maggie eventually caught Bianca and they talked. For once in their lives, they both seemed to be on the same page. They both wanted each other, that was a given. They were both afraid of the affects on their friendship; and they were both afraid to make the first move.

"Bianca come sit." Maggie patted the edge of her bed.

Bianca was hesitant at first, but she decided it beat sitting on the floor in the hallway any day. She took a seat and pulled her knees to her chest and rested her head on them.

"Bianca, can I tell you something?"


"I wouldn't shoot you down this time?"

"Excuse me?"

"I wouldn't shoot you down. I also wouldn't change my mind. I know what I want because I have wanted it for two years now."

"Maggie, I know what I want too, I just don't know if I am ready to risk the possibility of loosing our friendship because of it."

Maggie got up off her bed and placed her glasses on her nightstand and closed her books. She shoved everything in her bag pack and began to head out of her room. Before she was completely gone, she stopped in her door way and turned around to Bianca.

"Bianca, just have a little faith in me."


"I said, have a little faith in me Bianca. Open up your heart to me, you might be surprised what happens. Don't let fear run your life any more."

With that, Maggie left her room and the apartment. She needed to think, so naturally she went to the library.

"When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spark
Have a little faith in me"

Meanwhile, Bianca still remained seated on Maggie's bed well after she was gone. She had a lot to think about. Her heart was fighting a battle back and forth. She couldn't stop the tears from coming. She had blown it once again, or had she?

"When the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try, baby
Have a little faith in me"

Suddenly she remembered what Maggie had said to her earlier.

"I wouldn't shoot you down this time?"

"Excuse me?"

"I wouldn't shoot you down. I also wouldn't change my mind. I know what I want because I have wanted it for two years now."

"Bianca, just have a little faith in me."

"Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me"

Bianca smiled as the words repeated over and over in her head. She wiped away her own tears and then had an idea. She picked up the phone and dialed her mother.

"Hello Mom…I need your help."

"When your secret heart
Cannot speak so *easily*
Come here baby'
From a whisper start
To have a little faith in me"

Silently Maggie walked home in the darkness. The air was full of a mist that let her know summer was coming to an end. On her way home from the library, she decided to stop by the boathouse. Memories of nearly three years ago flooded her mind. This was where she had lost he chance the first time. The place she had given up her dream to fear. She sat there for an hour, just staring at her reflection in the water. Confusion, heartache, and regret were the only emotions she knew.

"When your back's against the wall
Just turn around, you, you will see
I will catch you; I will catch your fall
Just have a little faith in me"

Bianca worked quickly to prepare for Maggie's return home. She lit the candles, finished burning her CD, and poured the wine. She had made the mistake once of letting love pass her by without a fight. She refused to make the same mistake twice. No matter where their love went, Bianca knew she couldn't let it dissolve without exploring it. She smiled with satisfaction and waited for Maggie to come home.

"Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me"

The wait was a short one. Maggie soon arrived home. She had done a lot of thinking. She had spent too many hours hiding what she felt and now it was time for the truth to come out.

"Well, I've been loving you for such a long, long time
Expecting nothing in return
Just for you to have a little faith in me"

She had spent too much time holding back what she truly wanted and desired. If it took the rest of her life, she vowed that not one more day would pass, that Bianca didn't know how much she cared for her.

"You see time, time is our friend
Cause for us there is no end
All you gotta do is have a little faith in me"

Maggie smiled as she entered her apartment. She was caught off guard for a second when she noticed the candles. She searched for the light switch, but a hand suddenly came out of nowhere and stopped her.


"Bianca? What is all this?"

"I said I will hold you up, I will hold you up
And your love gives me strength enough
So have a little faith in me"

Bianca held out her hand to Maggie. Maggie just looked down at it for a moment, and then she raised her head to meet Bianca's eyes. When both of their gazes met, Maggie knew what it meant.

She smiled at Bianca and then teased her.

"What are you doing?"

"All ya gotta do is have a little faith in me
All ya gotta do is have a little faith in me
A little faith in me"

Maggie extended her hand to Bianca and she took it proudly.

"Something I've wanted to do for a long time."

"Really, and what would that be?"

"Just have a little faith in me and you'll find out."

The End

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