DISCLAIMER: I don't these characters, if I did they'd be living happily with each other fighting crime and changing the world for the better. The songs have the recording artist who sang them, I don't know who wrote them though, but major props to them.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: From here on out some episodes will be used out of sequence for the sake of the series, hereby making this AU.
SPOILERS: Minor/major spoilers for the episode 'Wrath'.
ARCHIVING: Only with the permission of the author.
SERIES: Alex & Olivia: The Soundtrack.

The Turning Point
See progression here people.

By Barbara Gordon

Mandy Moore "Cry"

Have you ever gotten that feeling in the pit of your stomach that tells you, you're in for one hell of a week? I did, and I should have listened, but it wasn't me that warning was directed at Liv, it was you.

Those three cases were prime examples of the great bounds your caring and compassion extended to, and Eric Plummer exploited that, exploited your greatest strength. He made you doubt yourself, blame yourself, and ultimately hate yourself. He killed innocent people because deep inside he knew you were a good person too, a good person who made a mistake. You're human Liv, we all are, we've all made mistakes. Yes, even mistakes that cost people their lives.

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

It's a sign of how much you've come to mean to me that I feel your pain as if it were my own. I was across the street of your apartment building when I saw Elliot leave. I could tell, even from there, that he didn't want to leave, he's a good man and he only did what he thought was best. And you're damn right I'd have done the same thing to protect you.

Part of me wondered what chance I'd have to get you to talk to me; after all you were pretty pissed off at me too. But after two hours of calling you and knocking on your door, you finally let me in. I was probably driving you nuts. All that tenacity and I didn't know what to say to you, so I did that one thing that I'd wanted to do since this whole mess began, I held you in my arms.

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

It must have been what you needed because you held on like you were drowning and I was the only thing keeping you afloat. After you had calmed down, we talked, I wanted so badly for you to understand that I never meant to hurt you. When you came to me in my office I was trying so hard to make you understand that it was only going to get harder, and that you had to be ready. I just had no idea how 'hard', I never wanted to add to your pain, I hope you know this now.

You've always been so strong Liv, sometimes I wonder if it's for everyone else's benefit; it pains me to think about how much it must take out of you. The trust you placed in me, by allowing me the simple act of wiping away your tears will never be broken, I swear it. I don't want to leave, but it's late now and you really need to get some sleep or rest, please try at least.

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find…

Good night, Liv.

The End

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